palmedfire: (Mizu is such a pimp!)
I swear, the next person who tells me I should grow my hair out, and/or wear makeup sometimes is going to get punched. I am twenty nine years old, a grown woman, I do not need other people telling me what I should and shouldn't do with my physical appearance. Especially when the implication is that I need to look "more feminine." It's insulting, frankly.

I've gotten a good handful of comments like this from coworkers lately, and I know they're not trying to be insulting, but it is getting annoying. And coming on top of my mother deciding that what I need for Christmas is new clothes (which I don't), it's really grating on me.


Nov. 4th, 2011 10:42 pm
palmedfire: (houses of the blooded fox)

3666 / 50000 words. 7% done!

No writing got done today between driving to Nekocon and attending the con and such. Which wouldn't be that bad if I wasn't already so far behind. I'm starting to get that sinking feeling in my stomach, the feeling that I'm too far behind, that I might as well give up, because there's no way I will be able to catch up.

I'm trying to fight that feeling. It's... not going too well.
palmedfire: (Tonamibeth)
First, a Public Service Announcement - I have two offers up on [ profile] help_japan. I am offering an amigurimu eevee HERE and a pony drawing HERE. Winning bidders donate to charity. So please bid?

On to the actual entry.

For those who don't know, I have very thick, very nice hair that I keep cut short-ish for ease of dealing with/work. I've had long hair in the past. In college it was down to my midback, and I use to regularly grow it out to roughly shoulder length. Then I realized how much easier it was to deal with when short, especially since working massage means I have to have it out of my face anyway.

So why am I mentioning this?

Well, last week I had two people at work comment about my hair. Now neither of the people are people who's opinions I care much about (there's a big rant coming about one of them soon), but I still found the comments annoying. Basically because both people said "Oh, you would look so pretty if you grew your hair out!", with the very heavy implication that it would make me look more 'feminine'. This needless to say annoyed me quite a bit. And sadly, even though I know I should just ignore them and move on, sadly has continued to annoy me in the back of my mind. Because really, it's neither of these women's business if I look 'feminine' or not. I know it came up because I am due for a hair cut, and my hair's grown out to the point that its a little shaggy, but I'm not sure why it's convinced either of them (neither of whom have ever seen me with long hair) that I should grow it out.

Feh, I could shave my head and I'd still look like a girl. I can't pass as male, even if I wanted to. My hair length or lack there of doesn't make a difference. And even if it did, it's no one's business but mine (and maybe m'lady's) what I choose to look like.


That said, I am due for a haircut, probably this weekend. And completely unrelated to the idiots' comments, I have been debating getting it cut even shorter than usual so I can do the spiky thing with it. I'm just not sure it'd look good on me, and I'm not sure how to tell. I'm probably thinking way too much about this. After all, if it doesn't look good, it'll always grow out, right?
palmedfire: (Sophie does not approve)
Dear Self,

When you're already PMSing and in a foul mood, it is inadvisable to go reading the blogs of folk who's professional work you admire. You have rotten luck in such things, as it seems to turn out that people who make stuff you like hold rather obnoxious personal opinions in real life. Do yourself a favor and leave such things alone.


Yea, I was wandering the internet this morning and stumbled on the blog of Jeff Vogel, head of Spiderware Software, a company that makes really neat shareware games (and for Mac!). He's got a really funny, snarky writing style, so I was having fun reading his blog. Until I came upon this gem:
"It is worth mentioning, at this point, that every tourist in New York City has to go to one Broadway show. Just one. Any more than that is unseemly and expensive, and it only encourages the people who make live theater to make more of it. Live theater is to entertainment as stone tools are to carpentry and leeching is to medicine."

Bolding mine. I... have no words for this. I really, really can't get past the frothing rage enough to have words, especially when it was followed a few paragraphs down with this:
"Just one warning. If you go see one of these shows, say Phantom of the Opera, when you leave, real theater lovers will be waiting at the exits to spit on you. And you deserve it. As if this planet doesn’t have enough mediocrity without your traveling across the country to encourage it."

And I know this is going to taint how I view the games his company makes, even though they have nothing to do with theatre. Which kinda sucks, 'cause they're good games.
palmedfire: (CURSES!)
*sigh* As if work stress needed to get any worse, my hours have been cut down to 16. 16 hours a week at $12.50. I'll pull in a net salary of $200 a week. I can't do that. I can't live on that.

I understand why my hours were cut. I'm not mad per se, just so very very frustrated.

Also, they want me to bring in more massage patients, and schedual them in the afternoons. The good thing is, I'd make more money per hour doing massage. Bad news? How the hell does one find clients? I suck at marketing, and I don't live near the office (I'm commuting an hour each way), so it's not like I know local folk. And because I live so far away, I'm not going to want to have to hang around in the area for say a 4pm massage when I get done with other work at 1pm.

I can't do this. I need another job.

In better news, I finally got mediafire to work, so if anyone's curious as to how my Elisabeth compolation CD turned out, you can download it HERE
palmedfire: (CURSES!)
Dear Brain -

Please stop wandering all over the fucking place. I had meant to write tonight. But no, you wanted to do jack shit instead. I have sat here and wasted the past two hours doing absolutly nothing productive. This has been going on for over a week. Cut it out! I would enjoy getting something done for a change.

No Love,


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